Question usual even after all that I ask myself everyday lately. So yes, it's pretty extensive, but I'll clarify: what am I doing in PREP? What have I done? Indeed, I have a vague feel I put in a lousy situation say. I do not even know how I'll get through. From the earliest days, my impressions were not the best. The disappointment was more than this, and it still is. I imagined a bunch of teachers passionate, alive, happy to be teacher preparation rather than a high school teacher, for students interested in relatively opposite them (when they still do not sleep after a night of Eventful integration - where I was not, I said - and when they understand the gibberish they are told). Well this idyllic scheme has not proved true. Not at all. After it is only the beginning of the year, it is difficult to judge. The history teacher is exciting some (2 duplicate copies per course, it hurts aha). But afterwards I did not feel real enthusiasm on the part of others. Maybe it's just me. Anyway, I'm afraid of being disgusted material I like to base. These days, I have worked almost as history (I loathed that matter, it must be said) and math. I'm just here and I admit that this is not displease me. I also started Sentimental Education by Flaubert in literature and I'm a little remote (I like Flaubert, I like the book, I like literature, although I could be some objections to the current course ...). But otherwise, even English gives me more desire! When I know that the teacher is going to go after us sadistic, misanthropic, viciously. It breaks the myth already a bit of preparation.
After the class. So we are 50 huh. Least 3 who have already left. The number still at risk of falling but 47, it is still a lot of people in the room! It was pretty strange because from the first day, groups were formed. So for those who were not included in this time, it becomes difficult to find a place (I speak knowingly). I had some meal only for lunch, it's pretty sad and it makes me pity myself, but somehow, I realized that I prefer to eat alone with 10 others (yes). I was also surprised that the "nature" of the class. A lot of fashions, lots of people that you wonder what they are still there (although they are very intelligent). Well, I may be paranoid, but I feel a certain contempt that floats in the air. Then there are many judgments vis-à-vis the "intellectuals", those who are a bit unconventional. In short, also disappointment that side. There are still people very open and friendly, but always the same, tough to fit (especially when you're like me and people are like them, namely "yay, life is beautiful, the birds sing, Care Bears power").
Regarding the work, I increasingly fear, I tell myself I'll never, and I wonder if it is a healthy system, the preparation. Store a lot of knowledge in a short ime, in lots of different areas and in the end, just remember two days later. We must act quickly, very quickly, and sometimes, quality is lost. The preparation is also, somewhere, a lack of freedom of thought. As everywhere, formatting formatting, and should avoid saying what you think like that everyone is better off and the notes come forward. For now, it's a very dark picture that I draw but there are still positive points. I manage to look back into history to understand a little German, to get back to reading, etc.. But I warrant that I will stay the full year. I think when we see the preparation of outside, we say "Yes, I know, it'll be hard, but it's very rewarding," and when we are in, things are quite different. That feeling again of the second school, high school what. The stress will go up, tension, tensions between pupils, Fear of never happen. Above all, the question of "what do I do next?". I'm just one of those who were prepared to prepare (just default actually), but also the category of those who wanted to enrich their general knowledge. After, is this the best way? I do not know. I said yesterday, "The advantage in college is that we have time. From time to read what we want to say, hey, I want to find out about this topic then I'll do it, this movie makes me want, I'll go see him, etc ". No forcing. So I stop on this note for the current description of the preparation, hoping that my vision improves gradually as the weeks go pass.
After the class. So we are 50 huh. Least 3 who have already left. The number still at risk of falling but 47, it is still a lot of people in the room! It was pretty strange because from the first day, groups were formed. So for those who were not included in this time, it becomes difficult to find a place (I speak knowingly). I had some meal only for lunch, it's pretty sad and it makes me pity myself, but somehow, I realized that I prefer to eat alone with 10 others (yes). I was also surprised that the "nature" of the class. A lot of fashions, lots of people that you wonder what they are still there (although they are very intelligent). Well, I may be paranoid, but I feel a certain contempt that floats in the air. Then there are many judgments vis-à-vis the "intellectuals", those who are a bit unconventional. In short, also disappointment that side. There are still people very open and friendly, but always the same, tough to fit (especially when you're like me and people are like them, namely "yay, life is beautiful, the birds sing, Care Bears power").
Regarding the work, I increasingly fear, I tell myself I'll never, and I wonder if it is a healthy system, the preparation. Store a lot of knowledge in a short ime, in lots of different areas and in the end, just remember two days later. We must act quickly, very quickly, and sometimes, quality is lost. The preparation is also, somewhere, a lack of freedom of thought. As everywhere, formatting formatting, and should avoid saying what you think like that everyone is better off and the notes come forward. For now, it's a very dark picture that I draw but there are still positive points. I manage to look back into history to understand a little German, to get back to reading, etc.. But I warrant that I will stay the full year. I think when we see the preparation of outside, we say "Yes, I know, it'll be hard, but it's very rewarding," and when we are in, things are quite different. That feeling again of the second school, high school what. The stress will go up, tension, tensions between pupils, Fear of never happen. Above all, the question of "what do I do next?". I'm just one of those who were prepared to prepare (just default actually), but also the category of those who wanted to enrich their general knowledge. After, is this the best way? I do not know. I said yesterday, "The advantage in college is that we have time. From time to read what we want to say, hey, I want to find out about this topic then I'll do it, this movie makes me want, I'll go see him, etc ". No forcing. So I stop on this note for the current description of the preparation, hoping that my vision improves gradually as the weeks go pass.
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